Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Clarity



Is this the moment? In a reflection of an open window, street below
on an unremarkable summer day.
Is this the moment, that the melodies finally penetrate, through steel,
that my molecules hum along to a song I think I always knew.
Its me and you. And them and all the broken promises we made.

It was never meant to add up.


But I tried all the same, and now it is all so clear to me.
I was sorry, 
and maybe I still am
but not for who I seem to be.
The twisted branch doesn't apologise to the oak.
And for the first time I'm proud of my insecurity.
My fallible heart can still see through mountains,
on the right day.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Time is a flat circle, after all.


As printed in CakeFACE: a zine celebrating ladies of art, music and diy spaces. Read CakeFACE here


As I switch on my computer for the morning, there is no shortage of domestic and international problems vying for my attention. A constant stream of angry tweets or well written articles fill my feed, demanding attention and biding for my time. As a busy young professional with a perhaps unhealthy news addiction, I wake to the guilt that I can't possibly be this angry all the time. I attempt to absolve this guilt by diving into the issues closest, and seek penance for my participation in the ignorant world by trying to continue the almost clichéd conversation asked for by each marginalised minority. If this does not work, I disconnect. I turn off the screen and bury myself in busy work and try to forget about how fucked some parts of this world truly are. I hide in stories, in television, in whiskey. 


There is danger in the disconnect. I am not speaking of the much needed downtime that is essential for good mental health. It is the danger in the growing gap between the issues and their factual basis. Between ideals and activity. The power has been taken away from minority groups by a self-alienating process brought about by the push to be bigger, to be better. Idealism meant that we shot for the stars, but the technological leap allowed us to get there faster than we thought possible. The speed at which we grew meant that we now have a youth who is looking to be politically engaged, but does not have the road map of how we came to be at this place. There is electric potential brimming in every cafe, in every bar, in the libraries and the street corners. Yet this electric youth feels powerless, because there is a missing link that is preventing the circuit from being complete. Some say that there is a lack of communication, of conversation. I suggest that we have the words, but we have forgotten where they came from. By turning issues into easily digestible, consumable, sharable chunks, we have removed their history.


So I ask, without knowing where we come from, how can we expect to know where we are headed? Has the capitalist marketing model been too readily applied to ideas, making reach, growth and brand name recognition the goal instead of action? Have we lost some of the meaning in the pursuit of change?


International relations scholar Francis Fukuyama argued controversially (first in an essay in 1989 and then in his book of 1992) that the fall of communism and triumph of liberal democracies and capitalism was the 'end of history'. Although the title of his thesis became the synonymous tagline to his life's work, it's simplicity does not aptly describe his theory. He suggests, that with the fall of the Soviet Union not that there would no longer be any non-liberal states, but instead that as a state theoretical model, none would now surpass the perfect liberal democracy. Communism would fall into obscurity, the west had won. The rest would be worked out in the details.


And so it went, for a while.


Enter the Afghanistan and Iraq war fiascoes. These, combined with the most recent uprisings and complications of democracy implementation in Egypt, Libya, Syria and across the Arab spring states have led to Fukuyama's theory falling from International academic grace. Yet if we explore liberal democracy's right hand man, free market capitalism, and the warm reception given to it by now-economic powerhouses such as non-liberal China, we see that Fukuyama may not have completely closed the debate. He and the neoconservative right have heralded and ensured that the new century will be one ruled by capital, growth and consumerism.


BUT WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH ME? WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME ABOUT AN AMERICAN-JAPANESE ACADEMIC WHO IS NO LONGER EVEN THAT POPULAR?


Because Fukuyama was both wrong and right. The end of history is the apocalyptic scenario that the simplistic title suggests. It is just that it looks nothing like the zombie/alien/disaster movie that we have all envisioned. 


Let me talk to you about ideals.


It was not just the economists who sought salvation in the markets. The great belief in the freedom of the market system pervaded across to how interest groups sought to gain foothold for ideas, ideals and how they pursued the holy grail of power and influence. If an idea was good enough, it would run the Darwinian gauntlet to success. If one worked hard enough and used every opportunity, then luck would be on your side. The optimism of the internet, the growth in start-ups and the shining examples of the Steve Jobs and Richard Bransons' of the world taught us to use what we had to get ahead. To further out ideas and our individuality. Smaller interest groups gained international foothold thanks to transnational activist networks and tools borrowed from the corporate world. 


The explosion of identity politics in the 1990s aimed to give voice to minorities who had been forgotten. It was the decade that brought us third-wave feminism, a growth out of the second wave of hard-line feminists who fought for work rights and right to choice in the 1960s and 1970s. It was individialisation of feminism, an array of sub-sects of the movement and a focus on a wider reaching movement that included all races and shades of gender. A generation that was not satisfied with the white, middle class definition of feminism sought to open it up to all. This brought us Riot grrl, eco-feminists, discussion of race and queer issues. A vision of a broader movement.   This growth of the number of feminists due to the opening up of the definition was to introduce greater equality, a more inclusive identity. Did it seek success but succumb to the dilution of its activist ideals? 


Not initially, and yet here we stand, two decades on, a generation who has no problem in identifying what issues it should embrace but with a fatal disconnect to the history and politics of protest, activism and the intellectual underpinning of where we place our feet. Third wave feminism has brought with it accessibility and commercial viablity, yet it has created a rift between the individual and the cause. Inclusive values and hard fought battles to bring counter-culture ideals to a wider audience have been successful, but these awareness campaigns have been torn from the historical, the factual and the intellectual. 


I only take feminism as one example, but our ideals are being divorced from history across the board. The left is split into its past and the progressive, and ends up stagnant, disorganised and intellectually vapid. The right wears its badge of conservatism proudly, but gone are the principles of conserve the good and improve the bad. Instead we are left with a political wing that is playing to its most radial outliers. The very fact the the names of our parties no longer accurately describe their position is evidence in itself.


Are the days of party lines well and truly gone, and if so, what does this mean for us? Is this the new frontier of the independent, of the individual? Certainly in the liberated west, it seems that progress has separated us from the reason why we stood up in the first place. Is this then, as Fukuyama suggests, the end? Or, can we view this as the end of a cycle. As a new beginning? Our scholar takes a rather attuned and gloomy view of the end of history at the end of his original 1989 essay:


"The end of history will be a very sad time. The struggle for recognition, the willingness to risk one's life for a purely abstract goal, the worldwide ideological struggle that called forth daring, courage, imagination, and idealism, will be replaced by economic calculation, the endless solving of technical problems, environmental concerns, and the satisfaction of sophisticated consumer demands. In the post historical period there will be neither art nor philosophy, just the perpetual care taking of the museum of human history. I can feel in myself, and see in others around me, a powerful nostalgia for the time when history existed. 

Such nostalgia, in fact, will continue to fuel competition and conflict even in the post historical world for some time to come. Even though I recognize its inevitability, I have the most ambivalent feelings for the civilization that has been created in Europe since 1945, with its north Atlantic and Asian offshoots. Perhaps this very prospect of centuries of boredom at the end of history will serve to get history started once again."


This is the point where I step away. This is the point where we stand up.


I do not believe that the pursuit of abstract goals will become an obsolete past time, but I do believe we stand at a dangerous, disconnected and apathetic time. In the face of climate change, refugee policy, media ownership, LGBTQ rights, feminist and government surveillance and privacy issues, there has never been a more important time for a greater connection with the historical conversation. These debates did not just begin when Tony Abbott spoke of them. They did not just appear when Snowden leaked the papers. Thousands of people before you and after you have and will push for change. It is in this continuum that the power of the individual is most apparent.



Identity and individualism can be empowering and liberating, but only if they are coupled with a tie to history and a with a view of where we want them to take us. Feminism, activism, protest: these things need to find their context again, and there they will find power. For if we can take the opportunities that transnational avenues, technology and greater access to knowledge can give, the fourth wave will be formidable indeed. 


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

The human condition.

Maybe I already met you.
Maybe I just didn't know it.
Maybe it was last Tuesday, in the bookstore, you asked me about Steinbeck.
Maybe I lost you,
Maybe I'll never know it.
Maybe the numbers don't fit, no clarity, the static doesn't break up.

Oh I can't seem to find the link, the one that makes it all make sense.
Logic told me long ago that it doesn't exist.
Baby its the human condition, ain't no finer print
Baby its the human condition, ain't no finer print. 

What if I forget this.
What if you aren't there.
What if the last place is, somewhere where I, I can't reach the words.
What if this isn't real,
What if we're nowhere,
What if truth is abandoned, house untended, what if God gave up the fight.

That is when we are free, oh 
but freedom is never quite the comfort that you want it to be.
You're what I need you to be, 
and i'll choose you, every time.

When everyone is fallible, when you see that nothing makes sense.
My heart told me long ago that this is all there is.
Baby its the human condition, ain't no finer print.
Baby its the human condition, ain't no finer print.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

What your government isn't telling you and why you should probably be paying attention

First post for 2014, aka Rachel's brain is finally back from cheese-induced coma break, also titled:

What your government isn't telling you and why you should probably be paying attention.

I have been utterly gob-smacked and dismayed at the public reaction to government controls of information in this past year. 2013 heralded a new government here at home who are quite content to control the message and spy on our neighbours, as seen in our scant media releases from the Department of Border Protection and the Indonesian controversy. As well as this, we have seen huge revelations regarding privacy and cybersecurity abroad as evident in the NSA and Snowden debates which have spilled out of the domestic arena into the international sphere. I, in my naivety, thought that no populous could stand by and allow a giant public admission of spying and collection of personal information to slide, and yet I was wrong. 

In the last congressional and senate sessions before Christmas 2013, the US saw a bill titled
"To authorize and request the President to award the Medal of Honor to Bennie G. Adkins and Donald P. Sloat of the United States Army for acts of valor during the Vietnam Conflict and to authorize the award of the Medal of Honor to certain other veterans who were previously recommended for award of the Medal of Honor” passed into law. Since being signed into law by President Obama, it has gained it's actual title of National Defense Authorisation Act of 2014, or NDAA 14 for short. It is a bill that is passed yearly which outlines the policy and framework in which the department of defense is allowed to spend it's budget, which is passed through a separate budget spending bill (also passed in the last sessions of 2013). You may remember NDAA 12 as the the bill which allowed indefinite detention. NDAA 14 has its own little insidious quirks, which have passed with little scrutiny because America was yelling about ducks. 

Also attached to this was a watered down Cyber-security bill (Sections 932- 942) as added by Senator Jay Rockefeller. It's no CISPA, but it does have provisions for voluntary sharing of information between public and government entities. It seems those on the hill have learnt from the mishaps of the highly controversial act of 2012/13 and created a bill which creates an even broader framework and shys away from any language that would suggest that information flow would be government controlled. It has some cybersecurity education parts and a model for headhunting potential highly talented cyber-oriented young adults for easy transition into NSA jobs. It is the first section that is worrisome though, potentially opening the door for data and information collection with many of the private corporations that did support CISPA. 

The NDAA itself is a behemoth of a bill, with so much padding that you don't quite know where to begin. Jennifer Briney and her excellent podcast Congressional Dish attempt to break it apart, but even she admitted that there were probably parts that she had missed. The broadly scary parts are:

- Section 1071: ENHANCEMENT OF CAPACITY OF THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT TO ANALYZE CAPTURED RECORDS
 
This section details that a Conflict Records Research Center will "establish a digital research database, including 
translations, and to facilitate research and analysis of records captured from countries, organizations, and individuals, now or once hostile to the United States". They maintain that academic integrity will be maintained, and that as long as it is in accordance with national security, intelligence protocols and sources and personal information they will make a significant portion of the data available to researches. So it is basically legalising the NSA's current work, under the guise of research.

The weird part comes when the section authorises gifts and donations from other government departments, foreign governments, foundations or charitable organisations (foreign or domestic), any source from the private sector (foreign or domestic). Combine this with the voluntary sharing of information in the cybersecurity bill and you have a whole host of possibilities for information collection and transference. 

- There is a whole section on the New Start treaty and nuclear preparedness that I am uncomfortable as it has international ramifications, but as I am running out of time I shall delve into this another day.

All of this combined with the new information from the Department of Immigration and Border Protection that the barely adequate once a week 'Operation Sovereign Borders' update will now be an email without the press conference. There is now no way of specifically knowing how many boats are returned to Indonesia or the actual numbers as the update likes to lump all the numbers together in a weekly aggregate total. How are the general population meant to educate themselves and avoid statistics like the ones seen in the Sydney Morning Herald yesterday if there is no access to actual data?

This post has no answers to all of these frustrations, but at least it begins to disseminate questions.




Saturday, October 19, 2013

Dear Jack: A letters project.

I always have too many ideas for projects and not enough time. And as deadlines creep closer and the hands of the clock turn past twelve, they all seem to spring forth and demand my attention.

Letters are quite important to me. There is something about taking the time to physically write to someone that brings out things that  you would never say out loud. Once written, the idea is liberated, although sometimes never aired ever again.

I also love the other end of the scale, and the way that sentences take on a different life when spoken out loud. I love reading out loud, and would take a job reading to anyone would they let me. 

So here is the fruits of the marriage of these two. The working title is Dear Jack: A letters project. A mixture of my favourite letters from authors, strangers, friends and my own collection that I have never sent. Recorded, spoken out loud. Names have been altered where applicable. A little mystery never hurt.


Installment one includes my favourite letter of all time, an amazing piece from John Steinbeck, a letter about letters and one about, mailboxes. 







When I am less delirious, I will try and put this all somewhere a little neater and perhaps on it's own page. Probably not, I know me. But I have some other beauties up my sleeve hiding somewhere, so I'll record another few for posterity soon. Contributions welcome.

Write soon. 

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The conversation.

Firstly, take a big breath everybody. Every single one of you. Read the review, not just the reaction. It is not a bad article. Yes, it does have a few negative barbs. It's a review. 

We must all realise that we do experience music within a small community. This is a blessing and a curse. I love having a family and a community, the ability to know I can wander into shows and say hello to someone. It is a safe scene, and that is much more than one can say about many that exist. The safety of the scene was never in question.

BUT. We cannot just rest upon this community and think that there is not more we can work towards. This is NOT a comment towards Andy or Poison City, but at our wider music group as a whole (even music full stop! All the bullshit 'top lists' are always male dominated). You would be kidding yourself if you did not realise that it is an extremely male dominated scene. This is NOT a critique of any men, this is a fact. It just is. But it is also a scene that has more potential and more ability to be inclusive than most others I have encountered. This is why I am here. This is why I persevere. That is why it attracts so many strong women.

So what we have is a foundation of number inequality, and a set of ideals that embrace equality. This means, that women and men from all ends of the sexuality spectrum need to continually work towards promoting their idea of the best possible family we can make. No one does this for you. You do it yourself. The more girls that get out there and start a band, or get behind the mixing desk, or design posters, or book shows... the better. Deep heat? They were my favourite band of Friday, because they were badass and inspiring. The more proactive people, of all genders, that promote our ideal community, the better it becomes. That is why it is flourishing, and why I hope it will continue to.

I have spoken to numerous people at one time or another who have become disillusioned with the 'scene'. Haven't we all? Within any group of people there will be politics and flawed human interaction. But if we all remember why we got here, how we got here to begin with, and know that there are multitudes of people out there that love, support and will continue to attend, play, book, create, mix... then we make the community we want. I don't quit just because I see something I don't like. I speak out, I change it, and I create the world I want to live in. I think both the writer and Poison City both do this too. No one can get complacent. It can always be better.

This is why I was saddened to see some of the reaction. Fuck you who have jumped to a personal attack. I saw one tweet that simply said 'Feminist bullshit'. This I will not stand for. The article said some things you didn't like, so respond in a constructive manner. If you get defensive then nothing good comes of it. You stop the conversation, and we can always talk more. We can always be more inclusive. We can always reach out more. It has always been about the music, so dispense with the normies, the kids, the oldies, the bros, the boys and the other devisive labels. 

Everyone should be welcome. We all know that, it's a no brainer. Let's continue to encourage the conversation and create the community, the family, we want. We're in it because we believe in it.


Thursday, September 5, 2013

Where will you be?

That cliched question. You know the one, the one you used to try and dodge from ex-boyfriends/girlfriends/employers/parents/weird relatives at Christmas. 

Where do you see yourself in five years? 

I hated it, then. Back when I thought that having a semblance of routine or organisation in my life meant that I was working FOR the man, not against him. I don't know where I'll be in five years! I don't know where I'll be in five minutes! I do what I want! I'm really easy-going and impulsive!

Jump forwards to a time when I actually might have a five year plan. Or, at the least, I have thought about what I want and worked backwards from then until now to figure out how to get it. This doesn't mean that I am a victim of the system, all it means is that I am thinking about something other than the sandwich in front of me and my hangover.

It is here that we find my utter, guttural, tangible rage on the state of political affairs. 

No you dolt, not in the sandwich. In the plan.

We don't have one. If you asked a politician today whether they had a plan for Australia's future, they would most definitely say yes. They would have a little slogan and maybe even a colourful pamphlet. But how can we possibly have a plan if the state of political debate amongst the populous is so incredibly short sighted? We all yell about immigration policy, about refugees, about boats.

THIS ISN'T AN IMMIGRATION POLICY. This is refugee policy at best, and one that is in violation of international law. And while we are distracted by the shiny 'issues' of whether they are going to take our jobs, we are missing the point. The question is where do we see ourselves in fifty years? We have an aging population, which means less people in the work force, less available taxes and therefore a decline in our precious economy. How do we solve this? I don't have the answer, but we start talking now. We start thinking, 'Hey, perhaps we need more people here, and perhaps we need to educate them, give them the opportunities to learn skilled trades'. 

While we yell about whether the carbon tax and whether it is fair on working families and how much compensation we should be given, AGAIN we are missing the point. It has been agreed at the UN that we must limit global temperature rise to 2 degrees in the next century in order to avoid significant consequences. 

"We must limit global temperature rise to 2 degrees. We are far from there, and even that is enough to cause dire consequences. If we continue along the current path, we are close to a 6 degree increase".
UN Secretary-General Ban Ki-moon
Remarks at the Council on Foreign Relations (February 2013

The original target to turn around emissions in order to keep below 2 degrees? 2015. Well done everybody, we have already cemented our future. Short term policy focus has meant that it is already too late. It is not a debate about the greenies versus business. This is a global issue that is fast slipping out of our grasp. Think we have refugee problems now? Just wait until we have climate change refugees. This is not far off. 

What what about the economy Rachel? We have to manage that. Surplus surplus deficit deficit. Riddle me this then: Where do we want our economy to be in fifty years? Still growing? Think we have enough resources to sell? Perhaps we should stop trying to prop up old industries and start investing in higher education, in innovation, in technology, in infrastructure and support for the new generations. We have the fortunate position of having the resources now, but if we only think about reinvesting in the same, we are putting all our eggs in one basket, and eventually the chicken will stop laying. My rage is inducing bad metaphors, excuse me.

I have voted. I will watch the results trickle in. No matter who gets in, I will not sit back and dust my hands of politics for another three years. It is now that it starts. If those at the top won't change the conversation, I will. You will. We all will. 

Let's start asking the big questions now. 

Where will you be in fifty years?